Saturday’s are my “rest” days which usually means deep clean the whole house. Cleaning was fantastic today because Alex is in Maine visiting friends and family for a week and I can focus so much better whenever he is not here distracting me! 🙂 we usually end up goofing off or not actually cleaning! So today I got A LOT done!
I was going through all our files and paperwork and trashing what needed to be trashed and organizing what needed to be kept! I stumbled upon a clinical care visit summary from march 4th 2014, I was at a very rough spot in my life…this appointment was confirming that I was having a miscarriage and that Alex and I lost our “baby G” as we were calling he/she. But enough with the sad part… I was weighing in at 183 lbs…still very much overweight… I know I am an emotional eater big time…like big time…I remember consuming more butterfingers than ever before and atleast a tube of cookie dough a week for like 2 weeks… I was so depressed and unhappy!
I began my weight loss in October weighing in at 205 lbs… so in 7 months from March to October I gained 22 pounds… I was doing the math and realizing that in 7 months from October to May I lost 73 pounds and it got me to thinking about those motivational quotes about how the weight loss journey may be hard…but being fat is hard… I can’t believe I let myself gain so much weight in such few months but I also can’t believe how easy it was for me to gain the weight… I mean sure I knew I was not doing myself any good by eating so much crap but I couldn’t believe that I was 183 lbs and let myself creep up to 205. Holy moses! Then I was shocked that in the same amount of time it took me to gain 22 lbs i busted my ass and lost 73! I am so proud of myself! Everyday still has its challenges…and some days I still want to eat cookie dough and candy and binge eat…but then I think of all the progress I have made…and think of how shitty i felt being so large…and how upset my stomach gets when I eat horribly…and then I say to myself Schaeffer, what kind of journey do you want to continue on? Sure…I could easily sit down and eat crappy and get enjoyment for a few moments and watch my journey take me down a path of weight gain and unhappiness…Or….I can limit myself…have non scale victories over the food going into my mouth and continue on my maintenance journey that I am so proud of!
Remember…it is up to you! Start today on your journey…become a better, healthier, happier you! If I can do it, so can you!!